Part memoir, part collected reflections at the end of a life fully-lived, in Gratitude, Neurologist and author Oliver Sacks (1933 – 2015) distills the crucial things that stand apart as he nears the end of his life.
Last night I dreamed about mercury – huge, shining globules of quicksilver rising and falling. Mercury is element number 80, and my dream is a reminder that on Tuesday, I will be eighty myself. Elements and birthdays have been intertwined for me since boyhood, when I learned about atomic numbers.
In his own inimical, casual way Sacks maneuvers us through “what is meant by living a good and worthwhile life.” Concepts include injected breaks and pause, reflections on loyalty and commitment, and cherishing the precious things we keep nearby.1
I have tended since early boyhood to deal with loss – losing people dear to me – by turning to the nonhuman… Times of stress throughout my life have led me to turn, or return, to the physical sciences, a world where there is no life but also no death.
Sacks ruminates on friends – including Francis Crick and W. H. Auden – and writes about being loyal to a necessary Sabbath. The Sabbath was a practice which rose from Sack’s Orthodox Jewish childhood and came to mean life’s most necessary rest.
In his reclamation of words, Consolations, poet David Whyte defines “gratitude” as arising from paying attention, from “being awake in the presence of everything that lives within and without us.”
Sack’s Gratitude, similarly, is a warm extension of the most important parts of a man who, despite a terminal cancer prognosis, finds joy and peace in remembering a life fully-lived and a need to “work until the end.”2
At nearly eighty, with a scattering of medical and surgical problems, none disabling, I feel glad to be alive – “I’m glad I’m not dead!” sometimes bursts out of me when the weather is perfect.
The pure joy that sparks from Sacks’ writing, like struck flint, will pierce and warm your heart. Like Maya Angelou who welcomed a long march of tomorrows in her early eighties, Sacks’ demonstrates our ability to live, whatever the age, whatever the prognosis.
My father, who lived to ninety-four, often said that the eighties had been one of the most enjoyable decades of his life. He felt, as I begin to feel, not a shrinking but an enlargement of mental life and perspective. One has had a long experience of life, not only one’s own life but others’ too.
Many writers and thinkers have gifted us written views from the purple-shadowed lands, including British novelist Penelope Lively’s thoughtful reflections on memory and Leonard Cohen’s collection of mournful, hopeful poems in his Book of Longing. There is abounding life, yet.