Maya Angelou

Mom & Me & Mom

“Their love informed, educated, and liberated me.”

“There is always tomorrow,” wrote Maya Angelou (1928 – 2014) when she was 80. “Today I am blessed.” Her vigorous energy coupled with the question repeatedly asked of her—”How did you become Maya Angelou?”—prompted the last of her seven autobiographies, Mom & Me & Mom.

This book has been written to examine some of the ways love heals and helps a person to climb impossible heights and rise from immeasurable depths.

When she was young, Maya Angelou and her older brother Bailey were sent to live with their paternal grandmother in Stamps, Arkansas. Their parents, separated, couldn’t cope with raising the toddlers.

I was three and Bailey was five when we arrived in Stamps, Arkansas. We had identification tags on our arms and no adult supervision. I learned later that Pullman car porters and dining car waiters were known to take children of the trains in the North and put them on trains headed south.

Under the protective care of their grandmother and uncle, Maya and Bailey spent their childhood. When they were teenagers, Angelou’s grandmother felt the South was too dangerous to be young and black, especially for fourteen-year old Bailey “It was a time when if a white person walked down the one paved block in town, any Negro on the street had to step aside and walk in the gutter.” They returned to San Francisco to live with their mother, a woman they barely knew.

After a few weeks, it became clear that I was not using any title when I spoke to her. In fact, I rarely started conversations. […]

She asked me to join her. ‘Maya, I am your mother. Despite the fact that I left you for years. I am your mother. You know that, don’t you?’

I said, ‘Yes, ma’am.’ I had been answering her briefly with a few words since my arrival in California.

‘You don’t have to say “ma’am” to me. You’re not in Arkansas.’

‘No, ma’am. I mean no.’

‘You don’t want to call me “Mother,” do you?’

I remained silent.

The love and support of Vivian Baxter towards her daughter jumps off the page in Mom & Me & Mom. From protecting Maya as she worked as a nightly trolley conductor to climbing on the delivery table to catch (and cradle and love) Angelou’s son as he is born.

Through experience and armloads of time, the two develop and nurture the relationship given to them by nature.1

I walked away and was back in my bedroom before I heard my own words echoing in my mind. I had called Lady ‘Mother.’ I knew she had noticed, but we never ever mentioned the incident. I was aware that after the birth of my son and the decision to move and get a place for just the two of us, I thought of Vivian Baxter as my mother.

Maya Angelou and Vivian Baxter used in for "Mom & Me & Mom"
Maya Angelou and Vivian Baxter.

Angelou’s memories of what once was are wonderfully gifted to us from the grace of age. They are luminous, well-narrated, and emotionally catching as any of Angelou’s works. This book is how Angelou came to be liberated and inspired by her mother. It is also how her own mother became a mother through the need, vulnerability, and inspiration of Angelou.

I will look after you, and I will look after anybody you say needs to be looked after, anyway you say. I am here. I brought my whole self to you. I am your mother.

Stories of motherhood are long, long tales of becoming, not being. Read Mom & Me & Mom alongside Joan Didion’s breathless story of the life-altering loss of a daughter, or Max Porter’s Grief Is a Thing with Feathers about the ‘hung-empty’ space left by a mother’s death.

Angelou’s first autobiography tells more of her grandmother, a woman who never kissed her but left Angelou in no doubt of her admiration and love.

Maya Angelou © The Examined Life